Feel so troubled, confused, frustrated...

recently heard about many rumours concerning me with regards to me at work. there are rumours of me been selected to be posted to another department. the best thing is i found out that someone from that department recommeneded to our superior that i did told him that im interested to go over there. what the fuck man! this kind of person is damn CB! i did not even mention to him that im interested to go over and he sabo me in this way. to be frank, i hate and dislike that department, the supervisor there only know how to give instruction and although its a 5-day week, u need to sacrifice your weekends and also burn a few hours after knocking off. to my despair, my own supervisor seem to be pushing me over there.

i have been in my current department for 3 years, kind of one of the senior man liao. now half of my department is filled with newbies with relatively no experience. y should my department be compromised just because the other deparment want more manpower? i don't get it and worse still, im the chosen one. i have already told my supervisor to try and fight for me but i dun feel assured at all. i feel like a lamb waiting to be sent for execurtion, just a matter of time holding onto my fate. i strongly believe in doing what you like, basically u must have the interest or liking even though u may not be very familiar of the work. there must be the interest or eagerness to learn which apparently im not having it. to push me over there is to send an unhappy worker to hell. he will rot there and eventually die. the final decision still lie with the boss, well at least i can say that if i really go over, come 2008 i will say goodbye to this organization.

hmm chinese new year is coming, in the new year, i hope to become a better person and husband. it will be a busy year for me and my wife, preparing for our wedding, renovating house etc. looking forward to those events. lastly i would like to wish all my friends happy chinese new year and may everyone be propsertous!!!